OOTD: Minimalist Carnival Employee

One time someone commented on an instagram that these are "Mickey Mouse" selflies; cause of the hats. I never noticed before but now it cracks me up every time. Theres no other place to store the hats but a hat wall !! Plus it would feel ridiculous/fake to take them down every time just for a pic (?) or am I being lazy ? I mean these blurry iPhone snaps speak for themselves clearly things are a little lazy lately, but I think I feel more comfortable writing these post with casual and conversational tone. Next time my schedule lines up with Matt though I'll get some real pic's together too. 

ANYWAYS I got this shirt at a thrift store in college (back in VA; now that I am in LA and after a terrifying experience with bed bugs I have sadly had to end my love affair with thrift stores) but this shirt is great it goes with/over/on anything. The pattern + material feels relaxed but a little edgy, I do think I look a little bit like I work at a carnival when I where it; Although I mean carnivals are dope so I am certainly not complaining. Any thrifters out there ?? What are your best purchases ? I once found a pair of hardly worn Louboutin ankle boots/booties for like $13 they were a size too small for me which was absolutely devastating. I still bought them (cause you don't not buy $13 Louboutin ankle boots) I gave them to my good friend Katie and she has put them to good use and she's good at walking in heels so it was still a happy ending. 

These sandals are the best thing ever and they are getting so worn- I bought them last year at an H&M and at the time I hardly liked them and now I am so in love with them and sad that I didn't buy like 5 pairs because they go with everything and are flat so I can walk in them and wear them to mic's. 

BTW after the worst dry spell in creative history I have FINALLY been writing again and am just so excited to be getting back into the comedy flow; I feel most alive and like myself when I am writing/performing like things just feel so clear. I feel happy but scared that it's going to go away again or something because this last dry spell lasted like 7 months and it was the absolute worst; especially cause its like HELLO you're in LA this is what you moved here for why are you not going out self !??!  So I hope this good vibe is back to stay. 

It's Friday and I DONT have to work tonight which is awesome. I'll be going to a mic with Matt. I hope everyone has a great weekend ! TGIF !! 

Hair update: Dark and Stormy

What started as "highlights for the summer" turned into lightening my hair for about 2-3 years. I absolutely LOVE the look of blonde golden locks. Unfortunately for me though, around December of last year my peroxide habit started to really take its toll, my hair was dry and brittle so I feel like I had no choice but to give it a rest and go back to my natural (or as close as I can get to natural) brown.

First picture is me at my blondest, serving up a fierce pose in some harsh daytime lighting ! (or should I say as fierce as a pose can be in my backyard in Virginia- you go 20 year old version of Allison FOUR for you!) this is an outtake from one of my first blog posts titled Hott Pants ! (I still own and love those shorts!)

Mid- december I first attempted to go darker and it turned out a reddish hue. This was a happy accident and I was actually totally cool with this but it faded out to a weird brassy color in less than a week. 

This is where I am now .. giving my best Lana. Side note: Sometimes I wonder about what future generations will think of all our "selfie"s. I mean I take TONS but I am well aware its a little crazy buttt  its a guilty pleasure. I hope my kids find all my selflies one day and are embarrassed; not too embarrassed but just enough) 

Anyways the dark hair is fine- I am still adjusting and I think I have creeped out my fair share of LA blondes by over complementing them. Like I talk to blondes now like a person who just lost a dog would talk to dog owners like "OMG I used to have a dog just like this but he's gone now I miss him can I pet your dogg"::"OMG I used to have blonde hair I loved mine I miss it  I LOVE yours how'd you get it ? Can I touch it ??" Oh also it is VERY hard to adjust your make-up routine with dark hair when you have been doing it with blonde hair for the past 3 years, any other hair-dyers have this challenge ??

To "Lob" or not to "Lob" ?

I am the WORST at adapting to change when it comes to my hair. **cue montage of my crying after every haircut or color change I have ever had** My hair is finally pretty long, I've died it back to its more natural color (brown) out of necessity. The blonde was killing my hair it felt like straw, I've been adjusting to the change but I can't help but be tempted to add even MORE change by getting a "Lob"- the long bob- It's so effortless and chic ! but after spending so much time growing out my locks I don't know if it would be worth the risk..will it even still be cool by this summer ? UHG to lob or not to lob ? That is the real question…

In the mean time here are some "Lob" inspiration pictures I pulled off Pinterest (which is truly the root of all evil..I'm on to you Pinterest you make me want too much!)

I could go for some messy bangs too ! but don't get me started on my love/hate with bangs ! Thats a whole other post. 

Me with my own bob about 2 years ago ( I would want it a little longer than this,  girls gotta pony-tail for gods sake!)

About last night ..

Long time no blog ! I apologize ..winter was rough.

Last night I had THE most horrible time at a "meet-up" hosted by a blogger I have been a longtime reader/fan/follower/lover of. It was AWFUL, I left feeling like I had less hope for the world as a whole. 

This woman who has written so eloquently about a wide range of issues, who is a part of a network of other bloggers I am fans of, who has made me laugh, been there with great posts to read back in college on those long nights of studying and writing on my own. She was shut off, shallow, self-centered and the friends she brought along were even worse. 

I won't name names because its never cool to publicly trash someone but I was just so let down, I cried once I was home. 

I guess the point of this post is that managing expectations is very important. It's easy to make things look amazing on the internet or to curate this image of a "cool" girl. When in real life you and your friends are the type that like to belittle others to build themselves up … The internet is great, this practically free service we have access to thats totally leveled the playing field for putting your voice out there or building a personal brand. That being said its crucial to remember that what really counts is real life, are you being a good person ? Is the world better having had your energy in it ? Are you uplifting those around you ? Are you making choices that you are proud of ? Last nights atrocious and bitchy meet up was a much needed reminder that it is who you are inside ( and NOT just inside the laptop) that counts. 

If I ever succeed in the dreams I have, writing, performing, creating I hope to always live a life I am proud of and to always always uplift those around me- knowing that I have done my small part in making this world a better place one moment at a time. 

Thank you for reading <3